i try to go to sleep, but the sleeping pills and caffeine are waging wars within me. my body screams at me to go to sleep, but my mind wont stop racing. i can hear the TV blaring...yet my ears are ringing. all i can hear is your voice scremaing at me. why did you have to be so cruel? what did i do to make you so angry with me? i keep hearing your voice, it wont shut up. "dont ever talk to me again..." i must have been a silly little girl to think that this was real...that you were real. im sorry for whatever i did...i fear losing you forever, oh wait...i already did. i loved you so much. i guess ill say goodbye. i let go, and you werent there to catch me, just like i knew you wouldnt be. Aeternum vale